Off Topic but I could use someone

[afpj]

unfortunately, there are turds everywhere you go...overseas or here. I'm beginning to suspect more turds are coming here than leaving.

 

[Vigilant]

Check this place out, man.

Thanks for all that you do for your country. Such a shame to see it going down the toilet so quickly a la barack.

 

[zieglerj-pdm-specialist]

Check this place out, man.

Thanks for all that you do for your country. Such a shame to see it going down the toilet so quickly a la barack.

As a Soldier we are suppose to agree and back up our President with zero hesitation and uphold his words as if they came from Christ himself

 

[07Burb]

I know that most of us pretty assumed as much but are you sure you should be posting that? Seems like that could be semi classified info which I've heard the big fellas in DC take a bit serious.

 

[zieglerj-pdm-specialist]

I know that most of us pretty assumed as much but are you sure you should be posting that? Seems like that could be semi classified info which I've heard the big fellas in DC take a bit serious.

I agree but Im getting sick of this place, Im sick of my life and Im sick of never seeing my family. They said it would be 5 years tops in the sand box and they are sending more troops now than ever plus were picking it with Syria which will just prolong life over here. I have had 9 good friends kill themselves and I've had more than 20 of my fellow specialist die in the field of battle. Its hurts so bad some nights. When I get home I know that my life will be in ruins. I wrote that post in rage because I found my friend on Labor day morning hanging in his barracks because he asked to go home because his wife was wanting a divorce and they denied the request all he needed was a couple days to get closure or give her the divorce, he had four children and they were crying out loud for daddy when he was talking to his wife. I talked to him the night before and he seemed pissed off and that was it he didn't show signs of him hurting himself. I went to our Captain and said I would give him my two days that I get next month, so he could go home and hopefully work things out. It was denied and I talked to him until 3am trying to say it will be OK. He had 9 months left on his tour with 4 days at Christmas to go home. He asked if he could use four of the those days to go home now! Denied. I woke up at 6AM walked in to check on him and a note that said tell my family I love them. We are not only losing troops to the enemy but by their own hands because they need family in there life also. With as many years as I've been in service, I have lost touch with my emotions I don't feel love, pain, sorrow, or regret anymore but yesterday I felt sorrow for the first time since I joined. I requested to go on IED watch and disarming for the next week until my next mission. I need to keep all this pain inside and look at life as an order. I don't see death as death anymore, I see it as a day to day occurrence. I have 739 more days over here, how would you feel if you see your friends dying in service or not being able to take it anymore and end their life themselves. How would you feel if your Dad was in the hospital in ICU and you cant see him and say you love him for the last time because you have a service that you are required to provide. Would you feel like You should hold it in or would you want to get it off your chest. If I do that here they put me on a Benzo and tell me you need to accomplish the task at hand. How would you feel if you couldn't see your family for 30 days talking to them one night out of those 30 days now add 709 days to that. I apologize Im just still thinking of my friend and I talking that night then 3 hours later you will never be able to talk to him again only through prayer. I signed up for this and I worked my way up the ranks for this. I did the best I could to be where I am today so no I don't have no one to be angry at or blame but myself. But I did this for all the people who fell to the hands of these bastards on 9/11/2001. Will I ever quit fighting, no I will never quit until all the evil is dead. Years ago when they cut the American's head off on video is burned in my head and they have no reason to live making this planet plagued by hate. I will still fight even after Im dead. Life is not the end, there is evil to be fought in the afterlife also. Im a soldier and I will fight evil until there is no more, I will never quit. God Bless my fellow fighters and God Bless the US citizens who support us. I apologize for getting agitated but I lost my best friend for no reason, or a reason that could have been diverted with a plane ticket. God Bless you all. Im sorry if I came off as a I just lost my best friend here and I feel empty inside. Im so sorry for my tone I took and I apologize.

 

[zieglerj-pdm-specialist]

Fortunately I was granted a leave absence until notified I guess I was acting out of character and my squad said I making hairline moves that worked but put their lives in jeopardy so Im happy to be home, Im spending a few weeks with my babies and a mom who can help because Im tending to a blown out knee. I will be on crutches in four to 6 weeks after they get the swelling in check and swelling to go away. I lead my squadron 4 miles on this bad knee, while your in action pain doesn't hurt, take the adrenaline and action I let everyone know the pain was high, They do the one to ten scale in the army also like the Dr's here and I screamed this is the worst pain I have ever been in. The have me in a 10 MG fentanyl drip every 6 hours and I thing they need to pump the volume on this, if I start acting in goofy reduce the dose. Im a 250 pound soldier who has a blown out knee, has shrapnel frags on the right side of my body, I still have a bullet in my neck and have two bullets in my back one in the right leg I shouldn't be sharing but that was the first night all I had was my knife and I limped out alive against 8 insurgent's Im glad they got me out of the fight because I was forgetting who I was? A Loving American father to a wife and two kids with a great job and I started my Civilian life on Monday. I set up an appointment to see if they can remove the shrapnel and the bullets because it didn't bother me over there so they kept me in the fight. The job I have I use to think I was made for this Job nut I don't want to go back, I have so much anxiety of going back it make me shake at times. I go into battle 10 against unknown with no hesitation but going to a yuppie firm scares the $hit out of me. Im hoping the surgery keeps me away awhile. I caught myself looking for companies that need my talents and I need to quit that. I can see how the Hells Angels formed, you miss the comradery of your soldiers around you who would die for you and you die for them. Home, I just got Home and I need to stay home,I just got home and I need to stay Home, I just got Home and I need to stay home

 

[Vette66]

In the up most respect, you need to talk to somebody qualified in PTSD. Do it soon I feel you are on a bad path to nothing good. No shame in seeking help. You sir are one of many men I respect for putting yourself out there in harms way for the name of our country. Losing a good man like you that has sacrificed his life and countless other things we, as civilians, could never fathom would be a travesty. Please for you and your family ask for help from somebody that can help you.

 

[zieglerj-pdm-specialist]

Thank you

In the up most respect, you need to talk to somebody qualified in PTSD. Do it soon I feel you are on a bad path to nothing good. No shame in seeking help. You sir are one of many men I respect for putting yourself out there in harms way for the name of our country. Losing a good man like you that has sacrificed his life and countless other things we, as civilians, could never fathom would be a travesty. Please for you and your family ask for help from somebody that can help you.

Thank you so much my wife set up an appointment with an army Psychologist and also she is going to admit me into a clean living house to hopefully get my mind in the right place because the pills have got me by the throat, as a sniper I used ****** to slow my heart rate down to make the clean shot. Well ****** made me feel relaxed and good so I started down the road of ****** and Ambien to help me sleep and I need to knock that $hit off. So I hope I can get help take care my brothers and sister. God speed. Take Care and God Bless